Evan Hawthorn's Blog

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Monday, May 18, 2015

thoughts on being human


this morning i saw this headline at commondreams.org:

Pope Francis Keeps Insisting

On Recognizing the Palestinians

As Fully Human, Like Jesus

Maybe Would Have

...
would that even Americans,
befuddled by the panoply of corporate funded goons and propaganda outlets,
could find their way to grasping this concept.
it would be a relief to so many, here in "homeland", and abroad in "conquestland",
waiting to be recognised by the "exceptional", pigment-challenged folk
of the "sole unexpendable" nation as spirited siblings of the same species.

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Sappy's Vision, an excerpt from "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"

this excerpt from my novella-poem "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons",
comprises the final stanzas from the 'night of dreams', wherein each of the
characters is visited in a single night.
*******
Sappy stepped sadly through the backlit forest,
wary and weary from a night scanning signs;
gravely shaken by unpromising portents
ominously twinkling in sinister trines.
the astral aspects were full of foreboding,
and the patterns formed by flocking folk were drear.
never before had leaves lost their luster
or berries been bitter so early in the year.

in an instant his surroundings were shifting;
constantly whirling in contrary motion.
countless particles shimmered in the air,
spinning the currents of a cellular ocean.
hues were suffusing in myriad directions;
a kaleidoscope escaping its frame;
gradually altering everything in sight,
save where he'd come from, which remained quite the same.

Sappy was confronting a vast living picture
composed of tinted light and rippling sound,
a bier in the midst of kneeling figures,
in a sea of pink flowers, reposed on a mound.
mammals and birds swelled overhanging branches,
and swallowed the sorrowful stretches between.
their heads were bowed and many were wailing.
a lachrymose wind lapped the edges of the scene.

though he stood on the brink he couldn't see faces.
so he leaned in closer, squinting his eyes.
and the vision vanished in that very moment,
trailing a whisper of wearying sighs.
he reeled and collapsed in the trampled clearing,
grasping at grass that had recently been burned;
and wondered if he'd witnessed the future.
it was then that he noticed the fog had returned.
*******
(thus endeth the excerpt - Evan Hawthorn, 13th of May, 2015)

Psychic Pastiches, an excerpt from "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"

this excerpt from my novella-poem "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"
references two of the other posted excerpts from the 'night of dreams'.
*******
the bay window was open in Sludge White's room
and billowing breezes were scurrying in
puffing the curtains and ruffling the feathers
of the sill-hugging birds that nestled therein.
in an image that was slowly receding
she saw herself waving and saying goodbye.
and someone was hushed by the thrushes and doves,
crushed with the embers beneath the garnet sky.

a rapid succession of snapshots followed.
in each her likeness was the constant focus;
leaping from ledges and spitting at soldiers,
relentlessly viewed from an unseen locus.
she couldn't recall such an obsession
in the psychic pastiches she'd hatched up before
and was baffled by the sheer consistency,
the bane of ploughed minds, and refuge of a bore.

but glimpsing the dazzling, quicksilver emotions
spraying like sparks from a sharpening knife
she grasped they had to be Sylvana's
who'd opened this window when she entered her life.
in the tart taunts tossed at thuggish sentries
she discerned the witty bite of Mock's waggish bent
and mused that she must be paying calls on dreams
as the deer by her side nodded their assent.
*******
(thus endeth the excerpt - Evan Hawthorn, 13th of May, 2015)

"heady words", an excerpt from "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"

this excerpt from my novella-poem, "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"
adds to the 'night of dreams', wherein each of the charactes is visited in the span
of a single night.  in this portion, we visit the spookhouse in the woods (the cottage
the Curmudgeons call home) to see what's stirring in the kitchen.
*******
Lumpy slumped limply on his clumped, bumpy mattress
further sleep stumped by a scratch in his throat,
resolving at last to head for the kitchen
to drum up a helping of honeyed compote.
he wobbled down the steps weaving passed Gramps,
a mournful ghost wielding a wavering candle;
weirdly contorted by trembling shadows,
lugging more sorrow than he could stand to handle.

a gilt candelabra glitzed up the kitchen,
brushing its glitter on fritters and truffles.
the swashbuckling knives had retired to their drawer,
though tempers still flared in trifling scuffles.
Weepy poured milk for the pendent otter,
curving round his shoulders and peering in the pail.
Sleazy waltzed in after gadding about the inn,
plastered and pickled yet lustily hale.

"all right me lovelies?  are the riffraff sawin' logs?"
he reeled and stumbled, landing in a chair.
Lumpy clattered a bowl on the cluttered table,
flashing to Weepy an eye-rolling glare.
the bearskin watchrug inched past the doorway,
snapping at conjecture deflected in the hall.
an errant draft played havoc with the candles
and shady grotesqueries danced on the wall.

"the wind is changing" Lumpy thickly remarked,
mumbling while shovelling his syrupy fruit.

"those are heady words" Sleazy tartly observed,
emptying his pockets of aces and loot.
the cards were sticking together like thieves,
their slick edges polished by his amply greased palms.
forged papers slipped out of a hidden lining,
stashed in a sampling of pornographic psalms.

he pitched a pamphlet hawking stagnant swampland
and unloaded a pair of lopsided dice.
then he plunked down a pouch packed with laced roaches,
spurious simoleons, and sizzling ice.
next came furtive flasks and spicy lubricants,
and the keys to unlock unsavory lairs.
though Weepy and the otter had started for bed,
they could feel Lumpy smirking from the stairs.

dropping from his tethers into deepest sleep
Weepy soared in the old familiar pattern.
he'd been making this journey in the darkness
ever since sentience first kindled his lantern.
he'd never been able to direct the path
for unnatural sway nulls natural law.
he simply accepted events as they happened
and felt with his heart whatever he saw.

he glided above the unattached ponies
as daylight streamed from a swollen salmon sun.
they'd not yet exhausted their blissful exertions,
blistered and bleary yet still having fun;
freshly engaging a burgeoning freedom
the cult of control ripped apart at its seams.
and he flushed like a lighthouse, brimming with mirth.
for tears never coursed through his nightseeing dreams.
*******
(thus endeth the excerpt - Evan Hawthorn, 13th of May, 2015)

Gropey's Dream - an excerpt from "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"

this excerpt from my novella-poem, "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons",
continues the account of the 'night of dreams' (wherein each of the characters is
visited in the span of a single night).  here is Gropey's dream:
*******
scrapes, scuffs, and scratches from rough ragged edges;
scruffy toughened beards that grate on chafing chins.
leaching rusty hinges attached to their latches;
splintered shards and the prickly points of pins.
serrated nettles and sharpened incisors;
thorns that cling to roses in porous clay pots.
pliant spines consigned by riled porcupines;
spindly needles slung through tightly threaded slots.

squelching squishes made with sploshing galoshes
when pouring rains make drains puddle up with drops.
sopping socks, spongy mops, and dribbling noses;
sludgy snow melting in slushy sloppy plops.
slippery flippers and soft supple slippers;
smooth wet surfaces of gleaming polished rocks.
flimsy flat feathers inhabiting hats;
the gooey slimy jumble of cream cheese and lox.

obdurate itches that linger on fingers;
vague echoes of feelings where once there were rings.
barely breathing breezes that tickle prickled skin;
fleeting encounters with butterfly wings.
glossy satin finishes glazing confections;
the crunchy crumbles on gooseberry pie.
velvety linens and warm woolen mittens;
Gropey rolled over with a satisfied sigh.
*******
(thus endeth the excerpt - Evan Hawthorn, 13th of May, 2015)

the night of dreams begins - an excerpt from "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"

this excerpt from my novella-poem, "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"
begins the 'night of dreams', wherein each of the characters is visited in the
span of a single night.  it opens in the castle, where the queen has just shelved
her concocting efforts for the night, after the mirror interrupted the spell.  then
we visit the cottage of Guanyin and Sylvana, who were introduced in the excerpt
relating the aftermath of the drone attack on ByWater Landing.
*******
as she lay sleeping supposition surfaced,
skimming the stirring edge of recurring dreams,
where she restlessly wandered a bleak terrain
with its plundered and sundered, overmined seams.
but the dangling threads were superseded
in her fitful filtering of fussy detail;
by the need to sate her covetous hunger,
engulfing her senses like a toxic Grail.

her husband passed the night avoiding conflict,
staring past the omens glaring in the sky;
shying from silence, sidestepping reason,
and striving to recall just how it felt to cry.
when at last he lumbered into slumber
he found himself fêted by merchants from the town,
their fatted coffers flush with flashing coins;
but his eyes wept blood and he couldn't find his crown.

in the forested fringes of Fleagle's Fern,
in a cottage heaped with sleeping brooms and crows;
the hopeful dreams of Sylvana were sweetened
by diffident departures, scented with rose.
floral breezes floated in from the heather,
fluttering curtains, caressing curling toes;
redolent of their garden meanderings,
flirting with flowers in flaccid flaunting rows.

Guanyin sat serenely in spellbound silence,
contemplating space with wise and sightless eyes;
tenderly attended by the monkey,
a sorcerer's apprentice in simian guise.
all of a sudden a laugh escaped her lips,
and she nodded her head while the monkey grinned.
then he crept away so as not to intrude
on her intimate discussion with the wind.
*******
(thus endeth the excerpt - Evan Hawthorn, 13th of May, 2015)

a watch and three dreams - an excerpt from "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"

this excerpt from my novella-poem, "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons"
relates a portion of the mysterious 'night of dreams', wherein each of the characters
is visited in the span of a single night.  Gramps was discovered in the dungeons of
the castle when the Curmudgeons rescued Nate the Woodsman (on the way home
they experienced the drone attack on ByWater Landing).  Mock had been orphaned
by his grandfather's disappearance, decades ago.  the reason for Pally's angst is
explained in the excerpt that deals with the drone attack.
*******
Gramps kept watch in the spookhouse in the woods
haunting the hallways, treading trenches in the floors,
like a soldier whose horror lives inside him
forever ensnared in never-ending wars.
he couldn't bear to close his eyes in darkness
uncertain they'd open on daylight again.
he feared waking up in a formless, senseless void
beyond the compass of anyone's ken.

his grandson slept soundly, swathed in reverie
swaddled in irony and wound in his sheets,
unaware of his elder's unraveling woe
reviving his life as a stray on the streets.
springing from a hideout, Pasty at his side.
spitting at soldiers, then taking to their heels.
scavenging for crumbs with pigeons and sparrows.
pinching saucy tarts to spice up paltry meals.

Pally's muffled dreams teemed with flying children
a sinuous string of tiny trusting hands.
losing his grip, he clambered in a chasm
struggling and slipping in suffocating sands.
he leapt from the covers, his heartbeat thumping,
thrashing and shivering in a sweat soaked chill.
Nate pulled him close and stilled his soundless spasms,
blinking back the tears Pally's eyes wouldn't spill.

later when moonshine winked in the window
divulging the tale of an owl's gliding flight,
Nate drifted through themes lifted from childhood
drenched in dappled sunshine, splashed with wells of light.
he fashioned a pipe at his late father's side
eager for approval, brash with newfound skill.
but the stem recrafted into a cudgel
radiating hate, and hankering to kill.

he smashed it on the ground, and battered its pieces
but the scene scattered and spun like a top,
and flung him on a plank of a rickety bridge
spanning a daunting, precipitous drop.
pursuing sentries surged from either side
their arrows clattering and plunging in the gorge.
as he panicked the situation altered
to a clustered bluster round the blacksmith's forge.

he couldn't quite grasp the gist of the grievance
that roused the peasants to bristling high dudgeon;
but he glimpsed the weapons burnished on the wall,
which briskly recalled the brandishing bludgeon.
he pondered the source propelling its evil,
and the shrouded fright shouting in outraged eyes;
and woke with the notion that disavowed doubt
must be rife in a life where violence lies.
*******
(thus endeth the excerpt - Evan Hawthorn, 13th of May, 2015)

"aftermath" - an excerpt from Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons

this excerpt from my novella-poem, "Sludge White and the Seven Curmudgeons",
chronicles the aftermath of the drone attack that the Curmudgeons and their friends
(Nate the Woodsman & Pally, the transvestite barmaid from the Gimpy Gait),
witnessed in ByWater Landing.  it also introduces a new friend, who relates her
history, in a tale within a tale; brushing the realm of dream-time, where myths begin.
*******
the first stars appeared as they reached the cottage
and a velvet hush was softening the ground,
enhancing the glimmer cast from the windows
strangely enchanting the dislocated sound.
Lumpy and the princess came out to greet them
but meeting the trauma they stopped in their tracks.
ever so gently they unstrapped the trappings
springing back the springs in the ponies' packed backs.

while the fire sparked its primal enchantment
and Gramps spun yarns of inverted circumstance
nothing could inspire the warmth or the light
to summon Pally from the depths of his trance.
all the terror laid bare in his anguished stare
chilled the gathering deer to the very bone.
but though it caused Weepy to glisten with tears
Pally's petrified gaze was dry as a stone.


he wrestled the night nestled in Nate's embrace,
lost in a darkness impenetrably deep.
from adjacent rooms faint sobbing could be heard
and two or three voices cried out in their sleep.
the moon bathed the earth in august splendor
evoking its canticle of keening howl.
Pasty paced the woods, flinging glancing glow
spoiling the dinner of a disgruntled owl.

something was rustling in the silvery gloom
so she slipped within the branches of a tree.
then a striding figure shifted the shadows
pausing in a place Sludge White could plainly see.
a handsome lass was clad in leather armour
with penetrating eyes and a candid grin,
her lustrous hair bedecked in dangling cornrows
cascading on luminous, ebony skin.

as she calmly inquired "why art thou hiding?"
her flickering laughter lapped the brittle air.

the princess emerged as her heart skipped a beat.
"only to observe a smattering of care".

"i see.  then i ought to introduce myself.
i'm citizen Sylvana, of Fleagle's Fern;
protectress of the Peoples' Free Collective,
an anarchist, and an acolyte of Herne.
we brought aid to the survivors of the flood
and uncovered a mountain pass steeped in rocks.
for two days i've been bailing out a hamlet,
feeding the farmers, and unmiring an ox."

"i'm known as Sludge White, and most pleased to meet you.
there's a cottage nigh, where i'm staying with friends.
wouldst thou partake of rest and refreshment?
it's just simple fare.  i'm afraid we're at loose ends."

"i accept your kindness, and beg your pardon,
for i mean no slight to your lady mother.
but a name like that could hardly suit you.
i wonder if you answer to any other?"

"my friends call me Pasty" the princess replied,
stepping over flowers filling up with dew.

Sylvana sparkled with musical chuckles,
and shaking her head, said "that'll have to do."

their voices lingered in the sleeping forest,
till the last glints of moonshine began to fade.
then dawn resurrected the drowsy landscape,
splashing its flashes of pink amongst the jade;
advancing the gift of a separate grace
for spanning the hours and wearing down shores;
for grafting the grieving into different drifts
as their feet find the grooves of well-worn floors.

rose-tinted arcs illumined kitchen windows,
igniting gilt edges of saucers and plates;
as Lumpy and Weepy heaped on the table
plump bowls of porridge, buttered crumpets, and dates.

"you must have something" said Sappy with concern.
Pally strayed farther in his faraway eyes.
it was the first time they'd seen him unadorned,
in the folds of Nate's cape, skirting past his thighs.
though Gramps gnarled fingers tousled his tangles
and the otter tucked his tail around his feet
this failed to elicit any response.
for despite the mute scream his silence was complete.

Rashful's bark blasted through an open window.
"just how the hell did the ponies get unhitched?"
as each person's glance met another's nonplussed,
Weepy looked down and his jittery lips twitched.
a wrathful visage sprang into the window,
it's glare occluded by overhanging eaves.
those gathered at the table shrugged their shoulders,
while Weepy of course, was sobbing in his sleeves.

"i should have guessed it would be you!" said Rashful,
rushing in recklessly and slamming the door.

Sappy stood swiftly to fend off the fury.
startled deer scattered from their spots on the floor.
"we have to accept each other as we are.
that's what we all agreed, from the very start.
since Weepy senses what the animals feel,
we must respect him when he follows his heart."

Rashful struggled with himself for a moment,
and settled on secreting a strangled sigh.
then Sappy squeezed the dripping hanky, and said
"there now, dear Weepy, there's no more need to cry."

the otter prodded more grumbles from Rashful,
trampling his toes on the way to Weepy's lap.
"i don't know what's come over me lately.
i never used to be such a softhearted sap!"

Sylvana was delightfully diverted,
fondly reposing a hand on Pasty's knee.
Mock instantly noticed, but feigned nonchalance,
while passing to Lumpy honey for his tea.

"what was it?" asked Sleazy, audibly airing
the one burning question on everyone's minds.

Gropey dropped the dishes he was balancing,
cluttering a muddle of shards, crumbs, and rinds.
but all their attention focused on Pally,
his head cupped despondently under Nate's chin.  
"they mentioned a weapon" the woodsman offered.
"the soldiers discussed it when they brought me in.
it was something that could kill at a distance,
so its use would pose no danger to themselves."

"well as long as they're safe!" said Mock with a smirk.
"another 'orror snatched from misery's shelves!"

"that's the whole point of makin' weapons" snapped Gramps.
"wreakin' 'avoc without feelin' its effects."

"to do away with Karma?"  Sylvana blanched.
"surely that's not a thing a person directs."

"as i told Mock when 'e were just a sprat,
the world's been in denial since it got started."

she thoughtfully looked from one to the other.
"how long has it been since you two were parted?"
  
"you'd better ask 'im, i've no 'ead for numbers,
and me best guess wouldn't be near enough right.
it were all darkness for us in that dungeon,
with no way o' tellin' the day from the night.
but it 'urt me 'eart fierce to be without 'im,
for i raised 'im, you see, since 'e were a pup.
any moment now it's like as not to burst,
seein' 'ow me darlin' boy's grown 'imself up."

Mock said "they took 'im when i was eleven.
days later they told me 'e died of the pox.
that's when i first were branded a terrorist,
for peltin' the sentries with insults and rocks."

Sylvana's laughter rippled in soothing waves.
Rashful leaned in closer, leaving off his wrath.
"may i ask what decided you, m'lady,
to foster the seedlings on the Green Man's path?"

"as a child i'd heard of Herne the Hunter,
but stumbled on his acquaintance in a dream.
he placidly stood in a sun-dappled wood,
resplendent and smiling in his dazzling beam.
his antlers appeared to be growing swiftly,
yet they managed to remain a constant height;
and the moon and the stars rose in the sunshine,
filling the forest with several shades of light.

a herd of deer danced enigmatic steps,
weaving a pattern too intricate to follow.
then he beckoned while his image receded,
taking me with him to a haloed hollow.
surrounded there by cedars and willows,
we ambled past mushrooms of astonishing size.
vines were entwined with tinkling sapphire bells.
and strangely hued rainbows  shimmered in the skies.

empathetic animals thronged at my side.
flowers blossomed in bewildering array.
i felt so completely peaceful and happy,
i couldn't imagine not wanting to stay.
when i reluctantly woke from this vision,
i knew i'd embarked on a signal sea change.
but finding myself alone in our cottage,
i hastily scoured the rest of the grange."

a gripping stillness soaked up Sylvana's pause,
the table held tautly in tense suspension.
rapt, spellbound birds had assembled on the sills,
and even Pally was paying attention.
Pasty seemed unable to believe her ears.
though captivated she was plainly perplexed.
poor Rashful was flirting with apoplexy,
blurting "well, what the bloody hell happened next?"

Sylvana continued, rethreading the strands
misfortune had seeded, then callously strewn.
"i discovered my mother in the garden,
her hemorrhaging injuries disclosing bone.
flapping scraps of shredded dress ripped through the air,
as her windswept spirit was torn from my hands.
of my father i found only his pitchfork,
broken and splintered on the blood-spattered sands.

panicked and crushed at the loss of my parents,
compelled and entranced by the promise of Herne;
i decided to set out for the hollow,
grasping hopeless straws, yet yearning to return.
but the trees i walked under didn't greet me,
and sapphire bells weren't blooming in the sage.
it was only the greenwood i'd grown up in,
with nothing to temper my heartsickened rage.

at the edge of the forest stood a cottage,
which i'd willingly swear was waiting for me.
a wizened old woman beckoned from a window,
'come in, my poppet.  you're in time for tea.'
despite misgivings, i pushed open the door;
inciting glitter in the hovering dust.
sprigs of drying herbs dangled from the ceiling,
mingling their fragrance with primordial must.

a cauldron was simmering in the fireplace,
adeptly stirred by a free-floating spoon.
two or three brooms had been propped in a corner;
another swept ashes while whistling a tune.
a caucus of crows clung to the chimney,
profoundly engaged in a heated discussion.
a monkey was slapping the clock with a stick,
keeping the time with impromptu percussion.
  
'they've been at it all morning,' she chuckled.
'they'll tire soon enough.  don't pay them any mind.'
then she lifted a cup into empty space
and i suddenly understood she was blind.
as the afternoon waned i learned her story
how she tended the rustics for leagues around,
with natural remedies poultices
which hearsay said were the best that could be found.

Guanyin was named for the Goddess of Mercy
and crossed the fell mountains from the farthest east.
she'd settled in the outskirts of Fleagle's Fern
to decline no mild man, nor kindly beast.
we've bided together since our first meeting
and she's taught me all the healing lore i know.
but when i suggested Herne charted my steps
she said the wind introduced us even so.

from that day to this i've been an apprentice
extending the work of her dexterous hands.
and i serve in the People's Free Collective
to ferment freedom in plutocratic lands.
we're a council empowered by peasants
to see to their needs and defend the common good.
honoring an oath i plighted to Herne
i'm an escort for outcasts adrift in the wood."

Lumpy caught Weepy as he dipped in a swoon,
sparked and smitten by Sylvana's gallant tale.
it seemed that Sappy had forgotten to breathe,
his chocolate skin tempered to a creamy pale.
Pasty grew pensive.  "i fled to that hollow,
ferried through the air by some magical grace.
encircled by willows, enveloped by bells,
your phantom hollow is an actual place."

Gramps said "quite surely.  it's in all the legends.
custom calls it 'appily Ever After.
that's 'cause it's mostly composed of reflections
and tears shed there are said to brim with laughter.
no space misplaces your neighbors or their thoughts
and each consequence gets concurrently cast.
whatever you fancy unfolds on the spot
yet the time it befalls has already passed."

"it's not likely you've heard of it." Mock observed.
"i'll warrant their majesties wouldn't approve.
to escape the contagion of reflection
they'd bloody well force the whole kingdom to move."
mirth unfastened every face but Pally's
for humour was estranged from his senses by grief,
swapped like the hopes of ByWater Landing
for the changeling terror of a soul-sickened thief.

Sylvana took her leave early that evening
as a blushing sun flooded the earth with rust,
and the frayed shadows of unattained desires
shifted about in the unsettled dust.
they bade their farewells amidst sighing thrushes
in the drift of cooing doves, plaintive and hushed.
yet somehow Sludge White simply failed to fathom
why her heartbeat fluttered and her cheeks felt flushed.

faint stars made their flickering appearance
while a parcel of ponies scampered in a field.
for the very first time in their hemmed in lives
they weren't reined, restrained, or required to yield.
eternal yearning revolved in the sky
as the planets revelled in their ponderous dance.
unleashing their kindred downtrodden wishes,
the ponies frolicked in a freewheeling prance.

*******
(thus endeth the excerpt.  - Evan Hawthorn, 13th of May, 2015)